I really jumped the gun. I decided in January that I was going to buy a Class B RV and travel the country visiting friends, and seeing sites I’ve not seen before. I have been on a mission every since to reach that goal. I think I peaked when, in July, I rented the van of my dreams, and Cosmo and I went on a test run. We both loved it. I knew when I returned home that I was ready to go for real. I had an auction, sold everything I thought I wouldn’t need for the few short months until I sold my building and got on the road. I literally started packing my bags. And then I waited. And waited some more.
It is hard to withdraw from that mindset. It’s tough to unpack my bags, and realize that I’m staying here for awhile. It’s not my first choice, but it’s my best choice. And so I’m doing what is doable, and instead of living in the future, doing my best to live in the present, with what is, instead of what I wish was!
I woke up to one of the most gorgeous sunsets ever the other morning. I rushed out into my back yard, and took this photo over my back fence. Then I just stood there for a minute and took it in. This is my reality. This is where I live. Instead of being sad that I still live in Milford, I thought back to my Peruvian experience, and to my feelings of being so connected to the entire planet, to the Universe. It wasn’t hard to get those feelings of connected-ness back as I stood there awaiting the ever-astounding return of the sun.
I had a good week. I had just the right number of clients and most of them were people who I really like, and who I enjoy working on. Each one gave me something of value. Some just helped pay my bills by getting a massage; most gave me a feeling of purpose, and a sense of caring. A few gave me gifts of wisdom by sharing their stories with me and by encouraging me (whether they realized it or not) to follow my dreams, continue on my path, learn everything i can and make the world a little better if I can each day. I am filled with gratitude for my work, for the place I live, for the friends I have who nourish me, and for the life I am creating for myself.
I will get on the road, and visit my friends, and see the places I’ve always wanted to visit. I don’t know when, but I know it will happen. I’m not sure it matters in the grand scheme of things. I am reminded of John Lennon’s quote: “Life is what happens while we’re making other plans.” I am paying particular attention this week not to miss my life that is perfect just as it is.